Is there anybody out there?

Wow, great stats over here. That’s nice. I didn’t think people read this shit
any longer. Head over to robertekstrom.com, for more extensive content.

Greater understanding of my words

Why are you still here? I know I talked about coming back
here at speachless times to make creation flow like some little
speedball but the truth of the matter is that robertekstrom.com 
are a much nicer place to be, it’s more hatred, less joy, more crazy,
less ass kissing, so why are you still here? Head over to the real
deal, now.

Poke this, poke that.

Where are the people at? Where are the words of ignorance?
What the fuck is happening? I don’t know, you don’t know, they
don’t know, no one really knows. I’m not a believer, I’m a sinner.
I have some useful words in storage and I’m going to select a time
to use them, a time of perfection, a time of darkness, a time of love,
soon time is up against itself and that’s the perfect moment to strike
against the injustices and ignorance of the world. Watch. Listen. Try.
Think. Understand. Believe. Soon.

Well it’s time for me to go and drink some coffee and poke my nose.

Hey Dolly

Well. Hello Dolly. Dear, Dolly. Please don’t, Dolly. Apparently I had a great day yesterday,
the highest viewers count ever, on my little blog. So thanks. You can read that post, here.
And I hope you haven’t missed my “superb top ten albums of the first half of 2009″ over at
robertekstrom.com. If you haven’t read it, head over here and do it, now!!

Attention folks, this is the captain speaking!

Oh, no you didn’t. Apparently someone has some love for Linda Rosing, poor little thing.
It’s actually quite nice to see someone defending her, I was wondering when that was going
to happen. Good job, you have now made my conscience to feel..nothing.
To be serious, I’m not a bad man nor am I a misogynist, quite the opposite actually. Women
are “Gods” greatest gift. I just hate people who are annoying as fuck and actually thinks that
they are special. She’s a celebrity or at least she thinks she is and celebrities should be able to
hear those kind of things, I’m sure she’s heard even more hurtful things. I just wanted to say
thanks to you, whoever you are, who commented with such rage, it’s nice to see I angered
someone with my words – that is of course always my goal. And just so you know, I do wash
my mouth with soap, almost every night but I can’t get these filthy and bad words to disappear,
I wonder why? Can you help me? Oh and yes, about you thinking I should put my donkey punch
where I sit, well if I could, I would – that’s a promise!

One last thing, read the post before being totally outrageous, most woman are ladies not bitches,
if you had read what the text was about, well then you would have known it didn’t have anything to
do with bitches cause’ I’m sure no I’m certain I didn’t mention Linda Rosing, Mariah Carey or Madonna?!

Kisses, RE.

Suck on this, bitch.

Read the new post “Suck on this, bitch” over at robertekstrom.com.

And yes, I’m sorry for the loss of words here but I will be back, sooner
or later with some nice stuff, don’t forget to click the links and enjoy the
other side of me.

For love some can die

For love some can die, read it. [robertekstrom.com]

D-d-d-donkey fuck!

You filthy, filthy suckers. Perverts.

Why are you here? You should be over here.

One, Two, Three..updating soon.

I’m at work, I shouldn’t sit here and write about that but I’ll update
later today and let’s see if I can fix that fuckin’ IE problem I have over
at robertekstrom.com. Well as I said I’m at work, I probably should
go back doing what I’m supposed to do.

Over and out.

The top searches for now

It’s quite fun reading the top searches, I remember a while ago, someone
had put in “fucking alexander skarsgaard”, fun right? Not really, just interesting.
Here are the top searches for now: “donkey fuck”,  ”a donkey fuckin a women”, 
“ugliest person ever”,  ”donkey punch scene fucks”,  ”restylane” etc.

People seem to be obsessed by donkeys and fucking and those two put together
just seems to get a little bit more nasty, shame on you people but should I complain?
If people hadn’t searched these words, they probably wouldn’t have found me but still
do I want to be associated with a pure and simple donkey fuck? No, not really but I
am as I am, I don’t really put any weight to it, just fun to speculate. Go on you Donkey
lovers.

The Day (edited)

Chapter One: A Hero among us

Trust no one but yourself. If the day comes and you’re not ready to
deal with the bad scums of human kind, then you have failed.
In order to succeed you have to be a different kind of man,
you have to see things in a different light, you have to grow
as a man and become a man of the people. A Hero.

The Night (edited)

Chapter Five: Darkness and/or Light

The world have lost it’s fighting spirit, since the night
became day and day became night, the world is upside
down. Darkness is now light and the light is gone, not
forever, but always.
Give us hope and belief. Where are you?

Chapter Fourteen: The End of the lost worlds..

The world is burning and little Tracy Wick feels a pain like no other,
bleeding, screaming and cursing as she tries to destroy the last threath
to humanity, never can she fail, never.  

Ricky..

Jag måste redan idag, ta tillbaka det jag skrev igår om ointresse om att
läsa vad folk gjort från dag till dag, det var mer en dålig känsla jag fick
av EN person än ett generellt tycke. Självklart älskar jag som alla andra
att läsa om hur bra/dåligt/patetiskt/roligt osv. en människa kan ha det
i sin vardag. Jag läser ju bloggar varje dag, så jag kan ju inte direkt “pissa”
på dom, genom att skriva som jag gjorde igår. Som sagt en känsla av
obehag gjorde mig vek, men inte nu längre. Jag är aldrig vek, mer!?

Chapter Thirteen: I am

There has been several causalties throughout the years
and no longer can we stand as one specific individual, we have to unite,
in order to conquer. I am belief and dis-belief. I am hope and hopeless.
I am Love and Hate. Things have to change. Fight. Bring us the battle..

JT

Paul Rudd is always very likeable and Justin Timberlake is
starting to grow on me with his comedy acting skills.

Just watch and enjoy! Awesome shit.

Svenska eller Engelska?

Nu har jag haft mycket tid att författa något vettigt, men det
går inte, svenska är inte min grej, även om jag enligt mig själv
är relativt bra på det, så är jag mer intresserad av att knåpa ihop
meningar och intressanta ting på engelska.

VOLUME ONE: Belief and/or The rise of the broken

The great idea with first drafts is of course, that you can change
it a lot of times, just the way you want to. So everything regarding
chapters is of course just thoughts out of the blue and they might
not turn out the way I planned from the beginning. So bare with me
I just love to do Chapters, it’s fun and time consuming, wiiee!

Ehrm

Jag har allvarliga funderingar på att byta “theme” på bloggen,
ett väldigt litet problem, som ödslar mycket av min alldeles
för dyrbara tid. Hemska tanke.

Vogue..

Click the link below and you’ll see a series of pictures with the same
model (20 years old) in different ages, all is done with great make-up
and lighting. 10, 20, 30, 40, 50 & 60 years old.

Three volumes

THE DAY

VOLUME ONE: Belief and/or The rise of the broken
Contains 13 chapters.

VOLUME TWO: Hope and/or The fall of the evil men
Contains 10 chapters.

Tid

Nu är den veckan här igen, den som får mitt sinnestillstånd att krypa,
den som gör att jag kanske inte är kontaktbar för yttre kontakter.
Jag pratar om mitt schema och jag ska inte gnälla, jag bara förbereder
mig själv på att jag inte kommer att kunna skriva så mycket
som jag egentligen skulle vilja, vilket är tråkigt, men jag
kan ingenting göra. Det får bli som det blir. Det får gå som det går.

Slowly getting a grip

This damn album review. I can’t wrap around it, all I can say so far is that I like these tracks,
“A Dustland Fairytale”, “Joy Ride”, “Human”, “Goodbye, Travel Well” so far.
I think I will change my opinion after the twentieth listen but that’s of another importance, right?

Last Resort

Last nights episode of House, titled “Last Resort” got the whole show back on track,
it was awesome as hell. With that i’m not saying this season has been bad, just that
i’ve missed some of those episodes that really screw things upp for the watcher,
this episode was exactly like that. Witty, immoral and House at his best game. Love it.

Why PollDaddy, why?

The root of all wrongs was the freaking poll, I should have caught it earlier but since
my mind seem to be elsewhere lately, things just passed my eyes.
Of course I’m talking about the annoying problem resulting in my widgets to fall to the
bottom of the page, it’s pretty annoying I think. The problem is solved and my lovely widgets
is right where they belong. It doesn’t get much more interesting than this, not tonight anyway.
See you all tomorrow.

Farewell my fellow citizens and all you other interesting people out there, farewell.

Det kommer en tid, min tid.

Jag har funderat lite och kommit fram till att det var väldigt, väldigt längesedan
jag ens försökte att rimstrukturera någonting i mitt skrivande. Något som jag
alltid gjorde förr om åren, varje dag, dag ut och dag in. Jag minns min Lunarstorm
tid, då allting började, då allting var nytt och färskt, då jag strukturerade upp allting
på ett helt annat sätt än jag gör nu. Jag skulle inte kunna skriva som jag gjorde förr,
jag är inte heller säker på att jag skulle vilja det, man fastnar lätt genom att se allting
i rim, jag vet inte varför jag gjorde det men det passade nog mig bättre då än nu.

The Promos

Jump over to DarkUfo and watch all the new Promos for the fifth season of LOST,
starting Wednesday, January 21st – 2009 of course, It’s the shit, lovely, lovely Lost.

Yes and No

Why isn’t things just a bit easier? How come, even though I’m pretty much amazing in every
way, or so I hear, I always have to fall into that pit, as an prick? I know my girlie loves me
but now and then when things are decided and nights have been planned a certain way,
everything has to be changed because she misses me. I’m not complaining on the fact that
the woman I love misses me a lot when were not together and I’m happy she doesn’t go out
every weekend partying but still I would’nt mind her having a little bit of fun with her friends once
in a while, she needs that. So I take a step back but I always get bad conscience because she wants me
there and I say “No”, I don’t think I’m doing anything wrong here just that she is a master of making
me feel like I’m not the one I am when I’m saying “Yes” to things. Well I just had to ventilate a little.

Love you my puddpudd.

Peaceful

Hmm. Nothing is really what it used to be. Time is relevant, whatever people may think
and time is short, times are dark. Shit. No excuses for not giving you or myself anything
real or interesting to read.

iMac

iMac

This shall be mine, eventually.

Lost

Saw the latest Bond movie the other day, I like the concept of not having so much, Bond, James Bond.
And I like the revenge idea, seems to me that Mr. Bond, kind of hardened a bit. But still it didn’t feel as
a bond movie as much as the previous and maybe that’s the idea. Pushing Bond from the Bond theme.
It was almost as if he was more human, with feelings, missing his lost love, Vesper.
Well, I both hated and liked the movie. Just so you know. Even though I hate the idea of having
Daniel Craig as James Bond I’m slowly beginning to think he actually fits for the role.

Updates?

I’m not gonna say I dislike this new “layout” that WordPress has done, but I was actually getting used to
the old one and I liked it. This seems to be a lot more of everything which is pretty nice but i’ll have to
get used to it, so it might take quite a while. Well, that’s enough about that. Today was supposed to be my
free-from-work-Friday but when people get sick, someones gotta step in, so today I haven’t been able to
do all those things I’ve planned. That sucks. No working on my .com, no writing, no brainstorming, no
nothing. Tomorrow is the day for updating, this is just an update with no update really.

Simple as that

Simple mind. Someday I might consider publishing every post I’ve written here on WordPress.
The 39 post, 40 with this one is half as much as I’ve written and just pushed the save draft button.
I don’t know why, but many of them are not good, many of them are, many contains things I’d like to
share but don’t know if they’ll interest anyone else than myself. My mind works in different ways than others.
A blog is a blog and you shall share just as much as you want, sure but if you go to far, people will lose the interest. That’s a sure thing. I know I interest quite a pleased crowd and they are still reading so something I
do is right and I’m gonna keep on doing it, for a long while. A change is gonna come, when the time is right
and everything is set in motion.

The Stories

Got up later than usual this morning. I have been productive anyways, the following
titles suggests some of my shorter stories I might publish on my .com, maybe a few
of them or maybe just one, keeping it minimal, at least in the beginning.
Does any of them sound more interesting than the other?

Dreams will..

Obstacles are as hard as you make them and as easy as you let them be. To dream is an fantastic thing. 
Without dreams, life would be simple and dull. If you don’t dream of what you can accomplish, why
bother accomplish anything at all? I’m not saying that people without dreams or imagination are dull
or unsuccessful people, I’m just thinking of my own potential and how good it feels to have dreams and
goals to reach. It’s a lovely thing, quite similar to love actually. The tingly feeling, the nervous guy in the
corner, the hand-sweat, the stuttering, the mind-blocks , yeah everything reminds me of love in some way.

The Dark Knight

There’s only a few days left before it hits the Dvd and Bluray stands and it’s gonna take the place
as the biggest selling dvd movie ever, or at least that’s what I’m guessing. I’m of course talking
about the biggest movie this year, “The Dark Knight”. As this wasn’t enough, Warner Bros. is going
to re-relase it in theaters on January 23rd. The day after Oscar nominations are announced, pretty
clever, huh? Re-releasing a movie the day after a movie probably gets a nod for Best Picture, Best
director and most important Best Supporting actor for the late, Heath Ledger. Who, by the way
was totally awesome in the role as The Joker. Well I’m guessing my happiness only reaches this far
as I’m not living in USA, I will probably or never see in the theaters again. But I’ll still have my Bluray
movie, awesome.

Falling snow

Isn’t this cool, having snow falling on your blog? I do think so. That’s all the changes I’m gonna make for
this month, the falling snow is my christmas gift to all of you but mostly to myself, hah. Well, that’s all,
now I’m gonna drink a glass of wine or two and watch a movie or two. See you all tomorrow.

Tomorrow

I’m at work and everything is wrong with this computer, I hate writing anything on this.
Still, some of my best posts has come from me sitting by this fucking shit, called computer.
Don’t know how I could manage to do that. I wrote a post earlier, but I just saved draft,
cause it doesn’t feel right, the words seem thicker and not as explainable as I want them to, crazy, right?
Yeah sure. The post was about the old drunken days and I’m going to edit it tomorrow and post it,
so now you know about my post tomorrow and my hate towards a computer. Good Night!

M. Hill

Howdy! Sometimes time isn’t enough for all the things you want to do. Life’s full of surprises, good and bad ones.

Sunday

Brief post. Why does it feel like Sunday today? All day I’ve been walking in the apartment
and seen nothing but grey clouds and darkness and that’s usually a sign for Sundays, at
least in my mind. Well, it’s clearly not Sunday. I hate Sundays by the way, even when it’s
not Sunday. Hrm, I’m getting reports from my better half, that it’s snowing, wiiiee, some
light to the darkness, nice. Good night and good luck.

1000 apor

Vad ska jag göra? Jag har fortfarande inte kikat in på 1000apor, jag har råkat komma
in där av misstag, men ändå inte tittat runt.

Lyssna nu så in i helvete noga

Det är genialiskt. TV4 mejlen, haha. “Lennart Ekdahl” skriver: “Lyssna nu så in i helvete noga,
Viktor Barth-Kron.” Är det inte fantastiskt? Jag var rädd för att detta skulle ske, att fastna.
Fan. Men jag älskar’t. 1000 jävla apor.

Silent House

As soon as I open the door to the place I call work, the silence strikes me as a strong wind,
trying to find a straight way to float around and around. This is only for now, a hour from now,
things will be hectic and fuckin’ crazy.

GG, what?

Let’s clear the air, since spending a lot of time at work I haven’t been able to post the Golden Globe
nominations,which may or may not be a good idea. I thought it might be a good thing for me if I
watched all the movies nominated first, just so that I can be fair to myself first and foremost.
Of those categories I actually have seen all the material, my predictions and thoughts are all written 
down but I’ll post the whole package around the 20th or so (just a reminder to myself). 

Tick-tack, Tick-tack. Gotta’ go to work it sucks working on the weekends.

WTF

Things are going to change. Not here, just in life, well soon things are going to change here to. 
I’m going to put my words in a magazine, if not, well then I just have to try again, again and again.
The beginning is very close right now. Nightmares are gone. I miss you everyone.
Tonight I’m gonna hang out with Daniel, drink some cold beers, then meet up with Robert on Harry’s.
C.K. I miss you, just as much a man can miss a man.

Svenskt

Nordin är på väg. Jag sitter i mina kallingar och dricker öl, manligt, va? Jag vet. Ska upp och jobba imorgon,
så måste tänka på mängden. Vi ska ner till stan för första gången på hur länge som helst, vi har liksom slutat
med att vara ungdomar och tro att vi är coola som hänger på stan. Men ikväll så ska vi till Harrys och hälsa
på Robert. Det var längesen sist, har saknat den mannen. Men det är det årliga, Roberts-jobb-julfest-som-
jag-brukar-trilla-in-på. Kom inte förra året, så det är så dags nu. Känns bra. Känns kul. Pling-plong, nu är
den långe här, hörs!

A Christmas duel

I haven’t heard a good Christmas song for many, many years. I always seem to fall back listening to the
awesome “Fairytaile of New York” by The Pogues featuring. Kirsty MacColl. This year The Hives and
Cindy Lauper has saved my Christmas spirit. “A Christmas Duel” is freakin’ fantastic. Enjoy!

True Blood

I’ve been on the lazy side updating myself with new episodes of various TV shows, one of the
newcomers “True Blood” is awesome, though I have only seen four episodes. For those of you
who haven’t taken a look at it, should be ashamed, it’s good, good, good. Stephen Moyer plays 
Bill, a nice vampire, which he does superbly and telepathic barmaid Sookie, played by Anna Paquin,
is wonderful, we swedes should be proud of our own Alexander Skarsgård who has a re-curring role
in this show.

Mammoth

It’s an interesting person and the only thing on my mind before watching the trailer for his new film;
“Is he back to do something amazing?”

What is coming?

The work I’m about to do is the work of my life. Maybe not that good but at least I’ve accomplished
more than I thought I would in just a couple of weeks. I feel excited and nervous. The time is near.

A gift

Sacrifices have been made, hearts have been broken, blood have been shed, battles have been lost.

5:00 am.

It’s an early morning, without a doubt. Can’t sleep. Hungry as hell and I need some coffee.
Really don’t know the point of waking up this early, although I actually enjoy spending some
early morning hours, fixing with things, seems I’m quite productive at these times.

Do not fear..

An Excerpt from what’s to come..[The notebook of M.Hill continues]

Did you fart?

I’ve hit rock bottom..my head is full of ideas but I can’t really write them down.
Anyways soon Robert will be here we have some beers to drink, nice. Ringsgaard
arrives later and Daniel too of course. Well I hope to update tomorrow, with some
new exiting things. Bye bye!

Is there something out there

To comment is an art form or at least it should be..

My Coffee isn’t really coffee

Robert’s Mania – Surprising facts, interesting observations and lonely morning hours..fuck.

Soldiers of evil, knights of darkness

Is there a different direction this story is meant to take? Maybe, but this is just fun.

Work, work, work..

At work. Tonight I might share something new from my awesome notebook, all depending on my
mood after working all day long. We’ll see, I hope I might be able to transfer something from paper to
computer, something awesome, of course. Well back to work, see you all later.

I think, I hope, I know

Quite a turnout, pleasing facts I should say. Like this, no I love this.

New Lost Promo

This is fuckin’ awesome, the new promo of “Lost”. And, yes. What is happening?

What’s in the calender?

What’s in the calender? 

Adventures

Merry, merry Christmas. New widget, subscribe to this blog, that’s my Christmas gift to you all.

Over..

Well, well, well. Christmas is over. All this stress just for one day, sick stuff. But I’m still happy.
I got a new coffee machine, a new t-shirt, new socks, a xbox360 game; Scene it, a new necklace,
new coffee cups, a new sweater and a bunch of more stuff, thanks you all. Today is my brothers
birthday, so I’ve got to buy a present to him. All good, it’s discounts everywhere as always, love it.
And thanks darling for a lovely day(s). 

Enough about me, how about you all?

Christmas, over?

It’s been some busy times, all just for one day, I’m starting to not understand
anything of this time, called Christmas. I’m at work now, feeling a little heavy
in the head and I’m starting to have a cold, as everyone else around me.
Well see you all later on, when I have enough time to do something good.

Bye!

The story continues

Every good story has to have a villain. A nemesis. Good versus Evil.

Again

It’s quite a crucial storyline. So it’s quite crucial to read my last post, the story continues. How do we understand a man beyond regular means. Read folks, read.

These vegetarians

This Sunday has consisted of only two things, working and searching the net for interesting stuff, neither has altered my cranky mood. Except I found a new Promo of Lost back at DarkUfo, but since I’m at work I will have to wait until I get home tomorrow to see it, that sucks. I am very much in love with Lost.

I wouldn’t write anything..

Well my friends it seems that my blog is turning out to be quite a winner in my own eyes, as I’ve said before I love statistics but hate mathematics. And statistics are showing me I’m much more interesting now than earlier this year and for that I would like to thank myself, my friends, my girls (my cat is a she) and all of you of course. I say I don’t care, but I do, if not I wouldn’t write anything. 

Anything is possible

Happy Fuckin’ New Year’s Eve. This was a year of many new discoveries and many new revelations. A good year. A great year. A fast year. But now it’s time to look forward, to see what you want to happen and what you want to do.

It all begins..

It’s a new year with new opportunities. The city is dead, people sleeping of their drunken hands and heavy heads. This may very well be one of the slowest days of the year, the first day but still it’s a beautiful morning, roofs covered with frost, the sun is shining and the sky is crystal blue. It’s a hopeful sign of the new year, a sign of belief, a sign of greater things that will happen. It’s a new year and it’s time to take time, to have time. It’s time to make dreams come true, it all begins right here, right now.

Chrome my Internet

It’s almost been a week since my beloved Internet Explorer (IE) gave up on me and I started using Google Chrome. I now have slowly starting to get used to the idea of using Chrome instead – full time, it’s both better and faster. So what’s there to think about? Well there’s that feeling of abandonment. After all, IE has had a long and faithful service. But it’s slow and it’s fucking up things all the time, so maybe this was for the best? My dear IE, fuck you. There’s just a little problem, my .com needs updating and without IE I can’t edit or update, so it seems I’ve got to fix this fucking problem and use IE (when I get it to work), for a while longer.

Drifting

It all feels the same not like a new year with new things to do, new things to accomplish, just the same as always. I’m drifting, I’m slowly turning the old page and writing on a new one but it all feels incoherent. See you all later, got to go back to work! Bye, for now.

.com

Some minor or major, depending how you see it, on my .com. That’s as much as I can give you all for the moment, see you later.

Seeking what’s right

Soon things will be as they should, greater then ever. It’s a good feeling knowing that you have readers no matter what and I haven’t really started writing yet, not the real way anyway. I’m just puttin’ nonsense on one post after another and seem okay with it, which I am but not quite satisfied. I want to give more, write more and start to write great. Cause’ these words, no matter what a few people think isn’t good not as good as I want them to be anyway. I have all my life had pretty much on my plate even though I can seem lazy to some I’m still within myself occupied with a lot more and to deal with those things, the pen is the perfect solution. And in my well known notebooks everything looks different, rawer, more complex, greater and much more beautiful. Beautiful you say? Yes, words are an amazing gift that we all have inside of us it’s just about how to find it and how to use it.

Up the game

Last day of the first week of the new year. This day is about to set the bar for the rest of the days and weeks coming this year. If I do alright, it will work out fine if I do good, well then I have been on a roll for quite some time now. Climbing and climbing towards my goal. Hush now. I hope to give you all something special later today, you all know it’s January 4th and it’s time to up the game a bit.

Bye, for now!

This is the problemo

I’ve realized the problemo’, my lack of writing is due to the lack of new and great music in my ears which wouldn’t be a problem if I had more time. It seems time just runs away more and more every day and I don’t have the time to be just me. Check out We All Want Someone To Shout For it covers music of 2008 pretty much great. And that makes me feel so much better. Yeah! I have an idea, just in the beginning stages of course, as always. But for that to be realized I need a little bit of Ringsgård, a better plot and to charge the batteries for my lovely Sony, may very well be good or just something to laugh at either way it’s something productive and just what I need right now.

This side of the truth

It’s got to be fun being on set with Ricky Gervais. He always plays some stunts on his assistants and other working on his films. It’s got to be a great time spending time with a fellow who’s never really serious about anything and maybe somewhat annoying. But as you know I love Ricky Gervais. A pure comedic genius. Watch a 7 minute featurette from the production of “This Side of The Truth” and Mr. Gervais being just as self-confident as only he can be. More after the jump.

My Jerks

Sorry you all, it’s crazy much work all this week and it fucks my mind up. Anyways tonight Scrubs finally comes back for it’s 8th season, this time on ABC though. Well it should be interesting, Courtney Cox guest stars as the super hot new chief of surgery Dr. Maddox. Also Nip/Tuck comes back after almost a year long hiatus, shame on you guys I’ve missed getting a good look into the life’s of those two we-fuck-pretty-much-everything-that-moves-and-are-good-looking-doctors-as-in-plastic-surgeons. Got to go now, see you all later. Bye!

Highly optimistic

There has now been 7 days of this new year and it seems to be like every other, time goes by fast, nothing really happens, ideas just seem to lay

Alias

Watched a Swedish music award show, called Grammisgalan, yesterday and the most prominent thing of the night was the Timo Raisanen (Räisänen) performance covering In Flames song Alias. Or wait, that’s what we all thought anyways about 1.31 into the song the shit rocks off. Very well I’m not very found of In Flames but this song was pretty good with Timo’s acoustic skills and special voice in the beginning and the end. Click more to see the freakin’ video.

Creep

Great music saves your soul.

I very much like Radiohead, sometimes. And I freakin’ love the song Creep. Now I’ve found a cover of it by Timo Raisanen I know I’m slow nowadays but what the fuck?! Well you can hear the song on Timo’s new album “And Then There Was Timo” it’s fuckin’ amazing. Download.

Doubt

A little excerpt from the first draft of; Doubt – a M. Hill chapter.

Chapter One

And so it all begins, I give you the first draft of the M. Hill story; “The (k)nights of Darkness – Chapter One” and/or “The Notebook of M. Hill – Chapter One”

Chapter Three

An excerpt from the first draft of “The (k)nights of Darkness – A Hero has risen from the shadows” and/or “The Notebook of M. Hill – Chapter Three” and no I haven’t forgotten Chapter Two, it’s here and soon you’ll have it.

Fucking awesome

Here it goes again, late night at work. Better go to bed but I want to share something, just an idea I had that I really can’t explain. All these ideas are fucking my mind up, I want to share something but it’s not really any idea just because my mind works in mysterious ways and I hate promising something to myself and others, that I may never even do. It sucks big donkey penis, yes it does. I’m not good at this, especially not at this hour my head and eyes are requiring a pillow and I hate to sleep it’s a fucking waste of time it’s nice but I don’t like it anyways. So somethings are going to change just like I’ve promised before but as always they aren’t finished but hopefully they will be finished in a short amount of time so that I can start concentrating solely on my writing and nothing else. Now I have to go to sleep (Interesting? No!) I really do. Good night and good luck, I’m drifting away towards the land of dreams as I’m singing a lullaby to myself, gosh what a beautiful voice I have…fucking awesome.

My own satisfaction

It’s not hard at all not writing about yourself like a self absorbed little brat, the hard thing is trying to write about yourself without writing about yourself, you know?

Stardom

I feel sad for some who’ve had their life’s in front of them and decided just to waste it. With different beliefs and views of everything. A sickness of self hatred and self abuse. I’ve been there seen it up close and personal, a person being crazy enough to do almost anything for some media attention. Many may not now how it’s like to be consumed by the power of media and what it does to people, some are weak and fall in their trap. We we’re going to be famous both me and him, he thinks he is but he isn’t and he definitively choose the wrong path to success I on the other hand don’t feel the need to get famous anymore, it’s pitiful and pathetic. I do what I do, just so that I can show myself I can do it. I feel for you my friend, you are sadly the most pathetic creature I’ve seen in quite some time. You shouldn’t do things just so that you could be recognized and/or famous, you should do it for yourself and no one else. It’s a different thing wanting to get out there, making your music sharing it with others in the world, making movies and/or write stuff but to just do anything to have some stardom is just so sad. Don’t know how I came from there to here, strangely I don’t feel anything regretful about a word I’ve written, I’m done caring for those who doesn’t deserve it. And I feel somewhat pathetic myself, since I was a long time ago just the same as that friend from the past, wanting to be someone but I now know that I am someone and who takes me for the one I am and that’s more than enough.

And now I’ve lost the thread, normally I wouldn’t post this one since I’m writing in circles but today I feel like posting it anyway. Isn’t that the greatness of being changeable?

Death is our common ground

Death is the only certainty of life. We all die sometime some in strange ways. It’s what connects us all as humans, death. And the death of someone close to us, brings us all together more than ever. Even though we know death is coming we are never prepared for when it comes. It strikes in the most mysterious ways and we are all scared of death, no matter what we say. Some might not feel it but when the time comes many wish for their life to not end there, not now, later. I am not allowed to talk about death with my girlfriend and I do understand her, some have a hard time of dealing with the fact that we are someday going to die. For me to talk about it as if I don’t care is my simple way of coping with the bad chills that dying gives me. I am even though I behave as if I weren’t, terrified to die but I can’t let that stop me from achieving all that I want to. That’s also why I’ve changed my total negativity to be more positive and try other things, to travel, to be brave, to do things I rather not do. It brings me happiness. To achieve things that has never been on my map of things to do makes your life so much richer and greater. I can’t be that kind, that kind that walks around and worries about things, afraid of what’s going to happen, afraid of what people might think still I am that kind, I’ve worked with myself for years to push that burden away from me and I’m so close to succeeding. I will conquer my fears and I hope many others can to. And lovely, I love you.

The happenings in between

Something just to let some of my words out, it’s the beginning, or some part, of a Chapter called “Hope” from the M. Hill adventures.

500 days of Summer

I’ve seen a trailer of a new, great movie. (500) Days of Summer. Read this plot and be amazed; “A romantic comedy which centers on a man who falls hopelessly in love with a woman who doesn’t believe in love.” it’s that kind of movie that I sure as hell will fall in love with. Kind of like “Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind” which is one of my favorite movies, I like the complexity and the weirdness. How love conquers everything. Beautiful. Well, this movie stars the wonderful Zooey Deschanel and the great Joseph Gordon-Levitt. What a couple. And don’t let the awful narrator destroy your experience of the trailer. To call this a romantic comedy is a donkey punch on the nuts because romantic comedies don’t have any brains at all.

The 100th post

This is the 100th post and it’s supposed to be something special but after giving it a lot of thought I’ve decided that it really doesn’t matter. I’ve had some trouble with my motivation, that’s hard especially when you know that you have so much more that you want to say, write down and such. The first obstacle is often the hardest part and for me, these first 100 has been my first obstacle, now that I have passed this I should not have any problems to proceed from this point onwards. Things can only be better and I hope I’ll get to share my vision, my thoughts and my stories in the future to.

Tomorrow is a new day and a new chapter at Donkey Punch!, some new things will be added and I hope it will be satisfying for all and just not me. Let’s all look forward. Bye!

B as in Breathtaking and O as in Oath

I’ve just watched the Inauguration speech by Barack Obama on Youtube. I really like that dude. Let’s hope he can make a difference because when United States of America bleeds, other countries follow in the same path. Free the world, Oh mighty man. Well, he’s hopefully going to do a much better job than that cunt George W. Bush, that can’t be so hard doing a better job than him, what’s hard is cleaning up his mess, poor Obama but he’ll fix it that I am sure of.

I welcome you all..

Welcome to TV-frenzy, a new little thing of mine. A beautiful thing about something that most of us love, TV. On Sundays I will review the TV-episodes of that week, news about the TV industry and some spoilery spoilers. If any ones show isn’t reviewed, just give me a shout and I’ll see if I can squeeze it in. Today I will give you all a foretaste on what’s to come so I give you brief look on the new season of LOST.

TV-Frenzy – Spoilers [Part I]

Starting of with only some Lost spoilers, nothing to serious just fun.

Sunday, February 22nd

The nominations for the 81st Academy Awards are now up and running. ‘Cause it’s a day of laziness I just took this list from comingsoon.net, so thanks. Well, when things settle down I will give my preview on those I hope and those I think will win the Oscar statuette.

Some crazy things..

There better be a good explanation to why things tend to go the other way? Nothing to worry about though as I’m on a roll I tend to solve every problem getting in my way. Well, I’m now going to sharpen my CSS skills which is necessary.

I shaved my balls

I shaved my balls and cut my penis in two. Horrific thought, awful dream. First and foremost, why the hell was I dreaming about balls, my balls, but balls in a dream is like caviar with chocolate, just wrong and wrong. Secondly while I shaved my artificial balls I managed to cut my penis in two pieces, that’s just sick. I hate you, man of dreams. And how the heck did I manage to do that, it wasn’t like I stood there with a kitchen knife and shaved the whole package.  Freaky, freaky man of dreams, trying to scare me out of my own skin. It’s a good morning, isn’ it? Except for the grey clouds and the cold wind and the darkness. Well, isn’ it time for us to get some energy now? For the sun to show it’s pretty self and make us just a little bit more awake and alert?!

Well, I’m off to work now, see you all later in the day and/or evening. And for fuck sake give me some love, love, love. Please! (a man begging is just pathetic, but hey what the hell?!) Bye for now.

Waves of moments

Troubled minds and urges to break rules. Come on you filthy bastards. At work, trying to pin out exactly what I feel that I need, right now. Probably some breakfast and another cup of coffee but reality serves another kind of treat. Today is one of those days, it’s raining, it’s cold, it’s dark, it’s boring. I would very much like to just write more, inspiration flows over me like a wave of revelation and it’s at these times you have to grab the moment and be just yourself and write the hell out of you. But as always moments come and go, often at difficult times. What I need is time, time to prepare for what’s to come, time to prepare for all that is destiny’s call. I am who I am if I weren’t I wouldn’t be anyone. My mind works in different ways and that’s what I’ve been trying to explain for so many times, I am nothing like anyone else, except for those who are exactly as me?! Understandable? Well if not, that doesn’t matter, things aren’t always meant for everyone to understand. If everyone understood everything, then the mystery of understanding some things wouldn’t be mysterious at all and what’s life without mysteries and the feeling of finally understanding things you’ve tried for so long and hard to understand?!

It’s coming..

I’m starting to love the idea of categories, a useful thing here on WP.com but still tags is my main interest, aren’t they just perfect and beautiful? Very well my friends, I’m working on the 1st TV-frenzy, it will be a two or three parter today. What it’s all about will be in the headline i.e. “TV-Frenzy – Spoiler [Part 1]” etc. 

Have to work now, but look for interesting updates later on. See you.

It’s the awesome things

Only a couple of hours old and already living it’s own life, TV-Frenzy is now over at “Pretty Fuckin’ Awesome Shit” or “pfas” to simplify things a bit. Lovely right? Very much needed, just so that I don’t mess up things, as always. So from now on, most Television news will be over there and only mentioned here, like a quickie, except Lost which I will cover both on Donkey Punch! and over at Pretty Fuckin’ Awesome Shit. More thoughts after the jump.

Out of England: The Stand-up Special

A poster: “Gervais at his comic best..”

The priest with homosexual feelings

Read an article Saturday morning, whilst reading a colleague of mine asked me if I thought that homosexuals are disgusting, my answer was a simple no. She is 59 years old and are still stuck in the old way of looking at homosexuals, which I can’t really understand. People aren’t defined by their sexuality, they are defined by their souls and their way of living. Well the article was about a priest here in Sweden who is homosexual but he thinks that every homosexual should live in celibacy, well you stupid cunt, isn’t that just fucked up? Come on folks it’s 2009 and some are still living by the rules of that old book that I don’t like to talk about. I accept you all who follow the words of the bible but I don’t follow them, so people should accept my way of seeing things to. My point here is that I really don’t think that you can decide if you fall in love with someone who has the same sex as you or not. Somewhere deep down, we aren’t just heterosexual, homosexual or bisexual we are what we are and that doesn’t change just by the fact on what sexual orientation we have. I could go on and on about this, for hours and hours. Everyone is the same, we’re all humans that’s what connects us.

Are you the Watchmen?

This is one of those posts, where I actually just want to show everyone something you’ve already seen. I want to say things you already know. Since Warner Bros’ won the rights of “Watchmen” I’ve felt a little happier inside. The movie adaption of the greatest comic book ever is going to be super duper awesome. So this morning I give you this, mostly ’cause I don’t have any time posting anything until later today but here’s something you all can just look at and enjoy. Le’ Picture after the jump. 

Blood Bank

I think I may have mentioned this before, but Justin Vernon aka. Bon Iver is so freakin awesome and his not so new EP “Blood Bank” is good, good, gooood. The track “Blood Bank” seems to be recorded in that very same cabin as his debut album “For Emma, Forever Ago” which was perfectly filled with melancholy and sadness. It has the very same feeling all over it. Very well, see this as a reminder and if not, see this as an opportunity to discover something beautiful. More after the jump.

Crazy for my sugar lumps..

Just watched the first two episodes of Season 2, of “Flight of the Conchords” I’ve missed this show for quite some time now, it’s amazing. And here you can take a look at the magic of the two, a free taste from Episode 2 of Season 2, see it after the jump.

Jughead

Something strange is going on, right at the Island but that’s old news. 3rd episode “Jughead” was awesome. Just like the way we want it. More mysteries, more action, more drama, more clues and even more to think about. Watch the promo for next weeks episode “The Little Prince”, and more after the jump.

The facts

This week I’ve written 13 drafts and none of them are published, shame on me. It feels like I’ve hit a brick wall going 100 mph. And my head feels both heavy and empty, a sort of emptiness I haven’t felt for quite some while now. But it always comes back to this, me feeling the emptiness and things coming in the way of my writing, crazy things. I think it’s my head playing some mind tricks on me, forcing me to fail with my own goals just so that I can start from the beginning. I hate it but I’ve learned to live with it.

Out of my hibernation

I had to do it. My previous post, The facts was just my negative side talking and whenever I write from that angle, things always gets easier. All I have to do is to be negative about things in my life, just spit them out and vóila I’m out of my hibernation, pretty great, right? The feeling of not being enough is always haunting me, don’t know why, that’s just the way I am but I feel so powerless without having my ability to write words, the words that someday will change my life. I’ve been kinda’ lazy lately not trying hard enough but I’m about to change that, all I need now is some energy. I need the sun, now more than ever. Enough about the sun and it’s energizing capabilities.

The Lost thoughts on “Jughead”

Had a thought about the last episode of Lost this morning and I just had to add what I thought was one of the most important things on Wednesdays episode “Jughead” – W i d m o r e. Now we all know why the hell Charles Widmore is so fuckin’ interested in the Island, he has been there, in the 50′s. Talk about awesome reveal. One more thought, the one most of us are thinking about, who the hell is Daniel Faradays mother? I sure would put my money on Ms. ******** but it’s seems to simple, right? What do you have up your sleeves team Darlton?

I’ve got Hurt Feelings..

OK! It’s official, “Flight of the Conchords” is totally awesome. Last weeks “Sugar Lumps” song, was amazing. This weeks episode, or last Sundays episode “The Tough Brets” had a little treat of it’s self. “Hurt Feelings” is so bad, it’s good. It’s pure ingenious. I freakin’ love this shit. They make the simple, simpler and they make the bad even more bad but they make it good, oh! lovely ..conchords. Watch both the Rap version and Song version after the jump.

The Little Prince

I don’t really know what I should say?! Wednesdays episode of Lost was just as fantastic as the three first ones this season, more clues and more revelations, it’s lovely. Some questions we’ve had on our minds are answered, after the jump.

Crushing the barriers

Now it’s time to crush the barriers, time to relieve everything, no secrets, no embarrassment, no rejection. Time to not hold back at anything at all, time to care about myself. I care enough about everybody to be called a saint, I love my friends more than life, I love my girl, more than anything. I love life but without any of you I would be just me, just a little piece of shit in a dumpster. Well, not that bad but something like that. I’m fuckin’ awesome, all because of you all. These past days I’ve been writing and writing but nothing has come out of it but it has not been a waste of time, ’cause every written word means something special, certain meanings of life. But all 15 drafts I have written are all containing at most 5 words each, just like a stone has fell on my head and making me not remembering how to do but as always, things always turn out to be quite good at the end.

The Resurrection (Chapter Five)

Here it is, a chapter excerpt from “The Notebook of M. Hill – The Resurrection” and/or “The (k)nights of Darkness – The Resurrection” chapter five, yes. Enjoy.

Collision course

I’m at it again, things are clearing up in my head and I’ve finally find the peace to go forward with my ideas, the last week has been quite hectic and with hectic times comes a fucked up mind, which doesn’t work at all. Since I’m now at work, as usual, I don’t have the time to think or to write. Tonight and/or later on today I will freshen up things a bit and show you all the idea I’ve been waiting to show you or maybe not you, just myself. Anyways something new is coming. See you all then.

My compulsive acts

Confusion of time. As I’ve said many times before I have a habit of thinking quite unusual in several situations
and that doesn’t always have to be a bad thing, well some of the time but not always. You know how almost 
every sane human being is checkin’ if they’ve turned of the oven or if the door is locked before you go to work? Well I do so to, only I’m getting trapped in the thought of some bad things i.e. I can’t always stop “feeling” if the door is locked at night, I can no longer just send the information to my head that the door appears to be locked from looking at lock piston instead my mind wanders some place else. I try to lock it again, again and again.

Why do I share this? Well for starters so everyone out there understands secondly ’cause I’m not ashamed of it, I just want to get rid of that feeling, the feeling that something bad is going to happen if I don’t feel the lock for just one more time, it’s not compulsive acts but it’s starting to be. This is just one of my many things I have a problem with before turning the lights of and curl up in bed. I write all this for a reason and if didn’t write all these stupid thoughts I wouldn’t be able to move forward, that’s just the way things work around here. So there’s all the normal floating away under the bridge.

All this is just to show that things we connect with certain diagnosis, is something most of us do. Or might all these thoughts just be a way of showing that I’m quite tired? Surely but you can’t always give in to fatigue, I know that I don’t. I hate to sleep it’s a waste of time sure it’s a great feeling to lie down in the bed and just fall asleep but I rather not spend my entire morning sleeping, so I always activate my poor little brain early. It’s good, trust me.

Chapter Two (Pt. II)

Another excerpt from “Chapter Two: Hope”, read and enjoy, the whole chapter will soon be published.

Inglourious Basterds

Do I even need to say anything? Quentin Tarantino is always awesome let’s just hope he’s just as awesome this time. The teaser of the new Quentin Tarantino flick, “Inglourious Basters” is now out on the internet, you can find it here. Based on the teaser it seems like our dear Quentin, has captured his normal sense of rawness, quick and crude dialogue and some humour of course. Well this piece is looking awfully good. Let’s hope it is. 

The film opens August 21st and stars Brad Pitt, Diane Kruger, Melanie Laurent, Christoph Waltz,
Daniel Bruhl, Eli Roth, Samm Levine, B.J. Novak, Til Schweiger, Gedeon Burkhard, Paul Rust,
Michael Bacall, Omar Doom, Sylvester Groth, Julie Dreyfus, Jacky Ido, August Diehl, Martin Wuttke,
Richard Sammel, Christian Berkel, Sonke Mohring, Michael Fassbender, Mike Myers, Rod Taylor,
Denis Menochet, Cloris Leachman, Maggie Cheung and Samuel L. Jackson.

This Place is Death

A quick summary of this weeks episode and a new promo of next weeks episode; “316″.

Chapter Seven – Sacrafice of a Hero and/or Brothers in Arms

An excerpt from Chapter Seven, called “Sacrafice of a Hero” and/or “Brothers in Arms”. After the jump, the story continues.

Major power failure

It’s 04.20 in the morning. I should be asleep but I can’t well I could if I got to but I’m at work and there’s been a major power failure and then the box for the central fire alarm set off and things just kept on rolling. The man who are supposed to get here and fix that damn alarm is nowhere to be seen, that fuckin’ twat, making me sit here all alone and tired for several hours. This is just crazy, well I guess they call it Friday 13th for a reason, technically it’s not Friday 13th anymore but it sure feels that way. Now I’m off to check if that terrible human being is on his way or not, I really don’t give a damn anymore but I’ll give it one last try. I hate that man.

The brilliance of Joaquin Phoenix?

It’s on every ones mind, what the fuck is up with Joaquin Phoenix, is he totally crazy or is he just playing us all? From a great actor to a caveman pursuing a music career as a rapper. Sounds great, right?

Well it’s hard to know really, if he’s acting then it’s got to be the performance of a lifetime. Just brilliant. I’m one of those who really thinks (or hope) he’s fooling us all, including David Letterman as you can see in the interview below. If it’s not a joke, well that would be just sad because he really is a good actor. Watch the YouTube clip after the jump and enjoy the great acting or be sad for the serious caveman full of heroin or something like that?!

Too many dicks on the dancefloor..

Flight of the conchords, episode 5 of Season 2. Lovely, right? Jump and check it out.

316

A short review of “316″ the sixth episode of Lost season 5. And the promo for next weeks episode “The Life and Death of Jeremy Bentham”, after the jump.

Everything will be alright

Sunday, again. I’m getting really bad at updating and that’s a fault I really can’t accept. I’m wondering about
how to proceed with this one, I want to spice it up a bit but time is of relevance and I don’t have much of it.
Well some days I do but I don’t take the time to do something about it. Started a new blog a while back for all
you Swedish readers if you might prefer that, it’s me and a friend of mine just spicing life up. Of you that’s
interested you can read more in a couple of days when we got it up and running the right course. See you all
later today with something new and exciting, hopefully! Bye for now.

The Life and Death of Jeremy Bentham

Ehrm. What the hell is going on? Why do you try to twist my head around, I’m feeling extremely excited.
Totally Lost? No, I’m starting to get it but a little Lost? Yes. Let me start by saying this OMG. (Yeah, I don’t
like that OMG shit either but it sort of describes things on Lost exactly as I want to describe them, therefore
OMG). This was totally freakin’ fantastic, I love where the show is going and I do understand those who don’t
and yes I do love the old format more but can you blame the producers for trying it out and making it work?
Me neither. This episode was quite a shocker. Read more after the jump. (If you haven’t seen this episode,
well don’t read more, except if you want to see next weeks promo, then you just have to click it and scroll to
the bottom of the page). Enjoy. 

A mansuit for mermaids..

These past few days I’ve been creative but only with writing some drafts, 15 of them to be exact and they’re all good but I can’t find the peace to publish them. There’s just pure emptiness. All is gone. Well of course not everything, just almost. I feel saddened by the fact that time isn’t just at my side nowadays, not even a little bit just gone. My head is just crammed with words that I can’t really put on a paper, just words, words, words and thoughts of course, everything crammed in that little head of mine.

Soon

The review of last weeks episode of Lost will soon be published and of course a great song from the latest
Flight of the Conchords episode. Later. Not now. Time. I hate time. I love time. Well, see you all later.

Corruption, Lies, Truths and The new things.

Treat me as I deserve. Lies. Truth. Corruption. Life is what it seems. Try me. 

The ugliest thing I’ve ever seen..

I’ve been so good these last few months not lashing out on anyone. I’ve held my thoughts back but I
really don’t think I can do that anymore, I’m not a mean person but it’s time to show the world something
to laugh at, something to be annoyed about, something to hate.

I know not what I do.

It’s the new things that excites us but when the change is made and the new things are not new anymore, where’s the fascination then?

Wtf?

Embedding disabled by request, fuck you, you cunt.

I ‘Relapse’(d) on some Em’.

I’m not gonna’ rate it. It’s a new era. It’s a new Shady. I just want to give you two 
bonus tracks and they are actually good, maybe even better than some tracks
on the new album “Relapse”. So listen and enjoy. You can get them here.

Waiting for Relapse 2, it’s gonna’ kick even more ass. Go, Shady!

If you could, would you?

It’s insane, it’s eating through my veins. My words are my weapon.

An update from the news camp, this is what’s about to happen;

Do you know, Can you see?

I felt like dropping something from the notebook, like an excerpt from “Untitled”,
so here you have it. Believe. This is the truest of truths. Fuck it.

The notebook, Part I.

After the jump you can read the first pages of my notebook, kind of cheesy, I know.
But I thought something real, something unedited would be in your taste. So enjoy.

The notebook, Part II.

A few more pages after the jump. Enjoy.

The Tree

This has no structure but who gives a damn? Not me anyways.
Continue and read the fucking poem after the jump.

1st of June, let’s get started.

Don’t forget about it, it’s all I’ve talked about lately. Or have I? Well
robertekstrom.com is up and running, so head over there, read some
shit and head back here and read The Tree, or else. Now it is time for 
my morning coffee, before I decide to punch something or someone.

Oh, no you didn’t.

For those of you who wonder why robertekstrom.com doesn’t work, it does
but just not now, the whole thing fucked up this morning. But I’m working on
getting an answer as soon as possible, so don’t give up trying. I will post a little
note here when it’s up and running again. Until then, we just have to live in harmony,
together, forever and ever. So my little minions, let’s get this party started. 

Now I’m going to feed myself and my little darling, before she decides to
throw a remote control against my balls  Loveth u. 

Bye bye.

2nd of June; it’s on bitches.

It’s up again. You can no go there and just be one with the new, one with
something special. Huh, well I’ll be right here and over there, fixing some
tweaks, writing some stuff, more editing and just enjoying the moment.

/ R